Smiling seems like the hardest thing to do right now...

Ya ALLAH.. berilah ketenangan di hati ku ini..

berikn laa aku kgembiraan tika aku mmrlukan nya..

wlaubgaimana pun, aku tetap bsabar..

cuma, ada ketikanya, perasaan ini tidak ttahan..

ksedihan akn mnguasai diri..

airmata mbasahi wajah ku..

Ya ALLAH... ku mohon, tenangkn lah jiwa ku..

berikn laa klapangan dlm minda ku...

AMIN..

i just wonder how long it's gonna be like this..

how long i have to be faking my smile..

i guess, smiling is the hardest thing to do right now..

even if i want to, it just didnt feel right..

my smile is unreal...

I'll be waiting..

I'll be waiting for the time, when i have that sweet smile again..

when i have that REAL smile..

I will be waiting..

though, at some point, 

i just wish that i can go back to the times when i dont have to worry about assignments, about works, about money, about phone, about going shopping, about love, about friendship or relationships and cries for the complicated stuff..

i just wish that i can go back to the times, when i was young,

when i was all about games, and dolls and teddybears and gummybears, playdoh and playing homes, when i would only cry because of falling while playing..

i just want those time back..

but it's all.. nothing..

all those thinking is just a waste of time...

life's a life..

time's time..

u can't turn back time to the times when u want ur life to be just perfect all the time, or turn back time to the times when u when just a little kid, all careless and carefree...

it' s just too impossible...

smile...

i'm trying to do that..

but a smile, seems to be the hardest thing to do right now....

mama, abah, wani..

i've been missing home damn much!